Like a proverbial wave of darkness, my mind is suddenly cold and barren. As though sadness is now disabling me, unable to walk, unable to think about anything but the darkness ahead of me. I feel myself walking into the shadows, like Moishe walking through the opening of the Red Sea.
I feel the shadow waters covering me, sweeping in like tidal anchors, pulling me deeper till I can't breathe. I shudder and I shake and I shiver and I quake...my heart still beats, but I only feel poisons of my past and guilt causing me the greatest of aches.