Placebo effect

Maybe you are going to ask about the title , but you will understand.
Have you ever waited for a dream to come true but when it does , you can't be happy about it ? A reality that's within a dream you are living unconsciously bringing chaos to your brain , crushing your heart as if it is the moment of truth ?
7 years have passed and i dreamed every single night of being with her. When i had my moment with her , i was happy, yet so sad because i'm never the one.
Because she's his.