Geppetto?

dear mother
father
i'm wishing myself happy birthday
after backpacking the world a year
i feel so different yet just the same
are you wishing me happy birthday too?
looking up at me from hell.
mother i'm convinced you're there too
letting him do that to me for all those years.
father i would congratulate you for being sober now
but i know you're drinking with beelzebub
whoring with ninkasi
you stole my innocence
but i like to think i still have some.
my innocence
my sense of wonder.
Im not so broken i cant be fixed. oh where is