Jake Randolph in "The Littlest Client" Pt. 23

Harrigan looked at me, "What the hell does that mean?"

I swallowed the last of my Coca-Cola and set the glass down on the table.

"I don't think I've even admitted this to myself, but I never felt more alive than I did when we were going through the war, despite the horrible things we saw and did. Any time we got into a firefight the adrenaline rush literally felt like a high. I knew when we got back I had to do something to try and match that high. Police work seemed too constricting and dull for me."