The entries became melancholy, almost regretful. It was as if he was realizing that he'd killed more than just Abigail. This went on for months. He was saying things like "I can't take it anymore" and "I just won't do it again."
The last entry was on July 15, 1979. He said he was going to go to the other side. He said where no one would find him, like Abigail. I wondered if that meant to the cave in the desert. I pondered if the "other side" meant death. Did he go out into the desert and commit suicide?