this isn't where i'm supposed to be .

Yes , i am drowning in an ocean of mixed feelings . i don't know how but you put some weight on my weakened shoulders that i can take no more. Obviously , because it feels terrible when we can't take it alone . Yes , i'll do it . No , i need someone to help me . It takes a lot to ask a person for help but yes i need it .
wait ! No , i have to try alone .
" Do it ! and when you can't , i'll force you into it ."