A Bottomless Pit

I am overcome by this strange sense of indifference and detachment, as though I am submerged in murky water...
Everything I do or say feels far off...
Anything I do or say feels surreal.

It all seems strange to me
Why are they smiling?
Why are they laughing?
They all look as if they are sincerely enjoying it.

Why is she crying?
Why is she looking at me with those desperate eyes?

Why do I feel nothing?

I don't understand...
I don't understand at all.

This empty feeling inside me,
Like a bottomless pit...

Is this what you call apathy?