And without warning the tears flow fast and loud and my whole body begins trembling. My vision darkens around the edges and I'm so sick and faint.
I give up - I'm too tired to fight this anymore, a tiny voice from a different time tells me.
It's my voice.
Give up, I tell myself. Let it happen. Let death come.
Then, another voice:
Deny life if you want, Anna Cody, but you cannot deny there is always a road back.
I'm shocked that it's not Taya Two-Horses voice.
Damn you, I shout, I'm not giving up anything!