Withdrawal

The nightmares have gotten worse lately; blood, rending flesh and screams permeate my soul.
Waking in a cold sweat every night wears on you after awhile; work has become nearly impossible.
Drinking hasn't helped, it makes the urges worse; I just need some sleep!
It's been so long since I've felt the rush; resisting it has only weakened my resolve.
Uninvited bliss in the form of unhindered carnage is the only solution, but it's that very solution that creates the need.
It's no use, the desire won't retreat until I feed it.
God forgive me, I'm going to sleep tonight!